Sunday, May 19, 2013

Heart Attack

You make me glow 
But I cover up, won't let it show 
So I'm putting my defenses up 
Cause I don't wanna fall in love 
If I ever did that, I think I'd have a heart attack 
I think I'd have a heart attack 
I think I'd have a heart attack 

The feelings got lost in my lungs 
They're burning, I'd rather be numb 
And there's no one else to blame 
So scared I'll take off and run 
I'm flying too close to the sun 
And I'll burst into flames 

You make me glow 
But I cover up, won't let it show 
So I'm putting my defenses up 
Cause I don't wanna fall in love 
If I ever did that, I think I'd have a heart attack 
I think I'd have a heart attack 
I think I'd have a heart attack 
I think I'd have a heart attack 

lately, I read books, watched dramas and movies that related to sad-end. and that makes my heart down again :(
even now, I'm better that yesterday but still I always think randomly if I'm alone .___. , I don't even know what's on my mind now ._. many things inside my mind and going to explode soon.
this side of mine said, 'I don't want to fall in love again'. One-sided love is hurt. but, my other side said 'I want to have that feeling again'. Feeling in loved with someone. that made our heart happy. and when that feel came, my inspiration exploded and all things became better. My scores could increase and my parents happy. I could get what I want either.

Ah, I still can't control my self enough ;'( 2 weeks more will be my final semester test and I still can't concentrate with it .________.  

About this outfit, I was wearing a grey dress from Espresso, bought over a year ago, khaki wedges from Crocs, Mom's white bagel and my unbranded hello kitty glasses as always :D

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Silly Diary's Confession #001

What’s the meaning of love?
Many people already met their beloved one
And me?
I’m just waiting here…
And no one will ever come
Love always end in tragic way for me, and so on. Today, This hour, This second.
Tears, my love became tears
Journey still continue….. I’m counting one two three
Who do I love?? And what’s on my mind??
A prince from Royal family or,
An Unidentified ordinary boy from this huge world?

It’s 12:00 AM already and I still can’t sleep.
I’m tired, really tired
Sick of this f***ing things
My heart is breaking a part, turning into pieces
And no one will ever fix it

This year, this spring, summer, autumn and winter
I will not fall in the same hole again
And again.
Praying is the first and the last that I can do.

Black, grey and white…. That’s my color now. I just used bright color to cover up all of my emotions actually, to make others happy. I wonder how could I make it in a fashion post since my face turning ugly when I didn’t smile?? Dilemma. That’s how I feel it now. Random and random. :’(

I just had a change to post my confession to this blog, I wrote it before I went to sleep last Saturday. I don't really know either I made a poem or not but I think it's look like a poem ._. Oh! I haven't mentioned before, sarang (사랑) is a Korean word mean love. 

I feel so sorry in this post I post this smiley and happy pictures of me while the content is really........ (I'm sure you know it)

Okay, talking about this pictures, I'm wearing my old dress*? Actually, I always wore with leggings but, I don't know what's going on with me, so I just paired it up with my black tights, and my white flower sling bag from Debenhams.
I wish that I had big bro or sis so they could help me out to take pictures :'( my mom and dad are busy with they work so I don't want to disturb them. My friends also aren't with me every time and it's so really difficult to take self photos .___. 

Look out the new MV from B1A4!! :D it's so funny! I love their concept!! playing with barbiee ahahaa~ and also pay attention at the man in orange printed cap!! JinYoung who's the leader of this group is really handsome!! :D 

Sunday, May 12, 2013

#3 stop : Compassion Festival - Mall Of Indonesia, Jakarta

After we went to Sayap Ibu Foundation and Orphanage, me and my family went to Compassion Festival at the same day. Compassion Festival is a festival that have theme "How to find your happiness in the right way". This Festival opens for public started 2nd May until June 2013 

I couldn't stop taking pictures!! there're a lot of quotes exhibition, replica statues, bazaar, the story of The Buddha and the most amazing are Buddha's relics and his students. Sooo cool!! there are already 300 years over (for Buddha relics) and still exist until now :0 amazing

You can see the picture above and under this text, I deeply fell in love with this wall quotes and the drawings!!

Quotes exhibition, there are a lot of  interesting biographies from inspiring people too!! 

Bunda Maria's Statue ;)

About this section, I took and arrange the photos in this blog randomly because Buddha Gotama's life was really long and it took 4 or 5 rows of pictures exhibitions ( I didn't take all of the photos exhibition) and I can't see the text in this pic clearly so I don't know about the right arrangement. hehehe :D 

So, the pictures above is about the distributes of the Buddha's relics in India long time ago 

And, this section is about Buddha's and his student's relics!! soo amazing! 

Buddha's relics!! :0 different from others!! 

xoxo, ditth :)

Thursday, May 9, 2013

#1stop: "Sayap Ibu Foundation" - Homes for Children with Disabilities

 Last weekend, I visited 'Sayap Ibu Foundation' located in Bintaro. This foundation cares about children who have disabilities, nurture them because the real parent are having difficulties in economics or not accept them as their children because of their disabilities. 
I visited with my best friend, Chantika also with my parent's friends and we had so much fun played with the children!! :D

They're many kind of disease that the children have mental trouble, autism, blindness and many more. How lucky we're, we have complete body parts, our parents still accept us as their children and sometimes we had disease that still have medication. In there, there are children who have hydrocephalus. hydrocephalus is a disease that the patient have surplus of water in their head so their brain can't develop well. there isn't any medicine to get it back to normal if you're late to know it. Just make the patient comfy until the end of their breath. :'( 

The pics above was taken by Ayu. Because she was curious with my camera hahhaa~ 
Ayu is one of the children who lives there. we had so much fun playing and took pictures with Ayu. I don't know about Ayu well, but why Ayu lives there because she have mental trouble. When she was kid, he had been raped by her biological father and now she also have trouble with her vagina. Poor Ayu :'(

we had birthday celebration too. Friends of my parents were having their birthday on that day so, we
celebrated it with the children :D 

outfit details: 
White Loose tee - Samuel and Kevin 
Red Batik Bagel Bracelet - Unbranded 
Orange Jeans - Rodeo jeans 
see you on next post! 
xoxo, ditth